A Hug from God

To be honest, I've felt some guilt that I've been M.I.A. from Holley Gerth's Tuesday link-ups about God-Sized Dreams the past several weeks.  I made the commitment to do this, and then I haven't.  But I have to give myself grace. I have been struggling with depression. I have been trying to get to a healthier place. I've tried to sit down and write some Tuesday posts, but I just couldn't make them happen.

Well, I took her challenge this week, The most important part of any God-sized dream is the Giver of it. Set aside a particular time this week to be with Him–to pray, journal, take a walk or simply sit quietly and listen. Write a post sharing what your heart hears or receives.

So last night, I sat among the treetops, quietly on my deck. It was gray and a bit dreary out, but the air felt warm, and the birds were singing.

I read some more of Holley's book first, and had my notebook to jot in. And I read this, "so that His voice is louder than anything else"...and I prayed, "Lord, I want your voice to be louder than anything else right now. Louder than anything."

And then this song came to my mind, Remind Me Who I Am by Jason Gray. And so I prayed the words to the song, "Lord, remind me who I am. Who I am to you. If I'm your beloved, can you help me believe it?"

And my spirit remembered, He loves me. He gave me these dreams. The same power that raised Jesus from the grave is still alive and active in our world. And His Spirit resides inside of me.   I also read these words from Holley's book. "Truth reminds us who we are." Then she writes more (I changed her 'you are' to 'I am')  "I am loved. I have a purpose. I am not alone. I am stronger than I know."

And as I stared up at the Heavens, the sky above me became blue, and I couldn't help but smile. That blueness above me, while all around me was still grey, felt like a hug from God. And I smiled out-loud, while whispering up "thanks."