(This is just a draft, but I made it a priority to sit down and write this morning and I wanted to capture it here on my blog!)
I knew the risk I was taking. I knew I might not make it
back home. 9:59…9:58…9:57… But for me it was worth the risk. A chance to see
the world in a whole new perspective. The chance to soar where no one has
before. Really, this is the only way to live this one and only life. YOLO the younger
generations say. 9:06…9:05…9:04… I’ve not merely existed on this journey around
the sun, I’ve made the most of it. I have no regrets for choosing this trip. Yet still, this isn’t how I thought my final
moments of this voyage would end. Utterly alone. With only my thoughts. 8:34…8:33…8:32…
Who knew I would be the one who would get to take these adventures. Who knew I
would be on my own at the end, counting down the moments. My mind is racing back through time, through
the days of my life. Too many memories to sort through them all. 7:23…7:22…7:21… But here, floating among the
stars, engulfed in the vastness of them all, watching earth from a distance,
balanced in a galaxy of blackness, I am captivated by it all. If we get glimpses of heaven, this must be
it. And I’m closer than I’d like to think…to heaven, that is. I thought I’d be going back to earth, but
here I am suspended in space and time, watching my oxygen tank empty out faster
than I want. Please, slow down time. Every breath counts right now. These are my final moments. 5:42…5:41…5:40… I’m
closer to heaven than to earth. And I have a strange peace about that. To know
that soon this blackness of the galaxy will be replaced with brightness of the
Lord himself. That the coldness of this environment will soon transform into an
eternal warmth. Like that of a perfect spring day. 4:10…4:09…4:08… That those
who have traveled before me, are ‘home’ waiting for me to walk beside the
crystal sea with them. On earth, I got
glimpses of the crystal sea, when my children would say, “Look at the sprinkles
on the water!” They loved how the sun reflected off the water, sparkling a million
tiny sparkles for our enjoyment. What joy I will soon experience for all
eternity. 3:17…3:16…3:15 Yet, at the same time, my heart grieves. It grieves
for those left on earth. I wish I had a chance to say goodbye. That I could say
‘see you later’. I wish that tears and pain wouldn’t fill their upcoming
days. I pray now that they will have
peace. That their memories will be their strength. May they be inspired to live
their lives well. To finish strong the journey that lies ahead of them. 2:21…2:20…2:19… More time. I want more
time. But really, is there ever enough
time to experience it all? Our days our numbered. For me, my minutes are
numbered. And here, at the end, the only time that matters, is the time I already spent
to love, and to live, and to give, on this journey. Those are the moments that mattered. Those
are the moments that mean something here at the end. 0:60…0:59…0:58… What does
one think during the last minute he has oxygen? I shall think of Jesus. Of his open arms
waiting me. I’m grateful he became the bridge between me and God on that cross, that he gave himself as a gift for
me to choose. I have followed him, and with faith and hope, I rest in knowing
that these last breaths are not the end of the journey, but only the beginning.
0:03…0:02…0:01…
(I asked the girls to give me something to write about...inspiration...Morgan said, write about being an astronaut in space and you only have 10 minutes of oxygen left in your tank).
Now on to work on the 61 etsy items I've had ordered in the past 4 days! :)
Now on to work on the 61 etsy items I've had ordered in the past 4 days! :)
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