I often use hashtags like #yearsflyingby #growinguptoofast #timepleaseslowdown #nopausebutton -- I feel this. Every day. I love being a momma. I love these years. I don't want them to end.
And yet I do. Because I like watching my girls grow up. I like seeing them discover this world, to enjoy relationships, and be all who God created them to be. If they never grew up, I wouldn't get the joy of experiencing all these bittersweet moments of motherhood.
I just had to pause on this cloudy Saturday morning, while Mike and our girls are watching yet another episode of Star Trek Next Generation, and record one such incident.
Last year, and at the beginning of this year, Morgan use to dread, I mean absolutely dread, going to school on pep assembly days. She had this paralyzing fear that she would be called to the front of the school and have to participate in the assembly in front of everyone. (All of us true introverts just said amen!) But for her, it was intense. She would actually beg me to let her stay home from school on pep assembly days. And I had to remind her how she had begged me in kindergarten to stay home from school on field day because of these same fears, and yet she came home saying it was her best day ever. Then I'd send her off with a prayer whispered upward.
Well yesterday, she performed with her color guard team at the pep assembly!! Yes.She.Did. And then, after school she tried out for the high school color guard team which means she will be performing in front of large audiences this coming year if she makes the team!
This 'growing up' of hers makes my heart sing and dance in a hundred shades of happiness.
I will also add, that a couple of weeks ago the youth had a march madness night - and even on the way to church she was like "I am NOT going to be on a team for games" -- and after she got home... "Guess what mom, our team WON and I actually participated in a relay in front of everyone - it was awesome!!" Growth. It's a beautiful thing.
Spring is here. She is blossoming. Life is beautiful. I love this season we are in.
And if I couldn't be proud enough already...