Tuesday, January 8, 2013

Dreams to Reality

Several years ago I read this blog post by Jill Savage called, Are you a Dream-Maker or a Dream-Taker? It echoes in my parenting decisions everyday.  You see, if I'm not careful, I can easily be a dream-taker.  But I'm conscious of this, and I fight to be a dream-maker for my girls.  But when in comes to me...well when it comes to my own dreams, honestly, I am more of a dream-taker. A realist. Why dream - it's not gonna happen. Why dream - it's ridiculous to think I'm gonna be an author. Why dream - it's a needle in a haystack chance of it ever happening.  Why dream?!

But here's the thing.  These dreams have been deep in my soul. They are bubbling near the surface.  I've tried to express it through my writing at various times: Simmering Dreams and The Dream Seed. So it's time to start making my dreams happen.  I love how Holley Gerth's new book, "Do What You Can" Plan is reminding me that it is all about small steps. Obedience in small tasks. I.can.do.this.  And it also takes faith. Believing God will take my obedience and weave it into a bigger story, that is far greater than even my own journey.

I'm part of Holley Gerth's God-Sized Dream Team (EEEK!), so once a week for the next six months, I'll be writing on here on Tuesdays about my dreams. Holley has invited 100 of us to be part of this team, inspiring each other, (and all of you!) towards the dreams God has placed in our hearts. I'm excited about the accountability this opportunity provides. Excited about the networking that is already happening with so many amazing women also pursuing their own dreams behind the scenes. It's beautiful.

So, for today, here are two dreams just are bubbling up in me...

Dream No. 1: There are lots of fun ideas that I have done with the girls over the years, and I'm still doing with them - that I think would make some really fun phone apps for other families to enjoy!  I think the more family togetherness we can create,- more laughter, talking, playing together we can do in our families - the stronger (and sweeter) they are.   Needless to say, I'm in over my head in this app development thing...but I'm taking small steps to explore options and seeing where God takes this.

Dream No. 2: I wrote a memoir. My story of tragedy. of pain. of my heart being broken into a million unrecognizable pieces.  Of my journey of healing. of discovering grace. of hope. of joy again. I wrote the story for my girls, but sometimes I feel like maybe other victim's families, on their journey of grieving/healing, might be encouraged by my words too.

It's kinda hard to write that down. What if I fail? But what if I never try? Oh, perhaps the real journey through all of this is giving myself permission to be a dream-maker!

psst - one small step - the sidebar on my blog has always said, "And... I wonder if I'll figure out what I want to do when I grow up, but try to enjoy the journey and cherish the moments along the way." But last week, I changed it to read the following, "I'm cherishing the moments of life's journey, while pursing my God-given dreams to write, share and publish my ideas." 


Debbie R said...

So happy for you and proud/honored to be among your friends. I am excited to be a witness of this process. You are, and have always been, an amazing person. I am confident God is using you in phenomenal ways--some of which you may never know until you join Him in eternity. I cannot wait to see where the next steps of your journey take us.....I mean you. :)

Cathy said...

Awe, thanks Debbie. That was very sweet. I'm thankful FB has allowed us to get reconnected and stay connected again...so that yes, we can see where the next step of the journey takes us both!

Anonymous said...

Thank you for opening up your heart and sharing. Dreams are a scary thing but with God all things are possible. Best of luck and God's blessings.

Stefanie Brown said...

What fabulous dreams, my friend! Trusting HIM to complete what He has started in your heart!
Excited to journey along with you.