Dear Sleep, Why have you left me? Where have you gone? I LOVE YOU and I really really wish you'd return to me. I'm not too fond of my friend Mr. Insomnia. Hey, I tell you what, it's the weekend, let's get reconnected! What do you say? You in?! Love, me
Seriously, it's been quite a week. Some long days and even longer sleepless nights. But in the midst of it all, there is this...
Back when I was still bottle feeding Morgan, I still remember what one of the moms in my bible study shared - I don't remember her name, but I remember her words. They went something like this: when my kids get home, I try to take a little bit of the harshness and realities of the world away. I've also heard it said something like this: home should be a safe place to land. And that is what I've tried to do within the four walls of our house...to make it a home, a place where my girls feel safe, loved unconditionally, and want to be!
Well you know what I've discovered this week? That this home has been a safe place for me to land this week. At the end of a very long day Wednesday - I dropped girls off at school at 7am and didn't return from work til 6pm - I came home to Mike having made me my Chicken and Wild Rice Soup (since we finally got some more wild rice after Duke decided to steal the last delivery of rice off the front porch and scatter it in the yard!) and Morgan had made her frosted brownies from scratch.
Then last night, I came home to dinner coming out of the oven again, followed by an evening filled with pure silliness and tons of laughter pouring through the rooms of our home. I mostly laid on the couch and did complete a few etsy orders (speaking of which - I got my DBA, tax ID and checking account set up finally this past week for my etsy store - since this has become more than just a hobby and the orders keep coming in! yay!) I paused in my exhaustion and cherished that which is "home".
Also, in the message last Sunday, we were challenged to ask others "what's it like on the other side of me?" You know, how do others really see me -- how do I make them feel? I still want to ask a few friends who I know will be honest with me, but I asked Mike and the girls this week.
Mike informed me that he likes both sides of me! ;) (And I'll keep the rest of his insight private.)
Morgan said that she likes how I always look for the positive in things and how even though it's annoying, she likes how I don't let them rot their brain watching TV and make them do other things, and that I give them 'jobs' so that they will be responsible when they grow up! Even though she did say I was 'cheap' and not paying them enough for jobs around the house! Umm, I confess, it's true.
Sarah said she likes how I care about other people, that I'm loving and she thinks I do a good job providing the right kind of discipline when they need it. (Mike says that means I'm too easy on them -- but we all know he's the softy!)
I don't know how I got these amazing kids, but I'm so glad to be their momma and share this journey with their amazing dad!
I know they won't always see things so positively, being that we have several teenage years ahead, but for this week, I'll treasure their responses and use them as a confirmation that despite all the times I yell and feel like I screw up as a mom, and find myself crying because I don't know what to do, that maybe, just maybe, I'm doing something right!
And lastly, there are these two who melt my heart...
Friday, January 2, 2015
My word for 2015 is DISCOVER. Here's some of the random thoughts about this word going through my head after a sleepless night of pondering it last night. I'm sure it will look different as the year plays out, but here's my starting point.
- Most importantly I want to discover, or better, REdiscover God. I want to be awed by the God of the universe - by His majesty, His greatness, His love. I don't want to take my relationship with Him for granted. I want to rediscover this amazing God!
- I want to discover new ways to connect with my growing girls. Morgan will be entering HS this year (do you know how hard it is to type those words?!) and Sarah is in MS -- I need to keep my eyes open for ways to stay connected to them while at the same time inspiring their independence. A fine balance to discover.
- Mike and I started this last month, but we want to continue to discover new restaurants in Downtown Springfield with a weekly lunch date now that we are both working downtown.
- I'd like to discover just how strong my body really is and push myself to better health, flexibility and strength. To discover that my body is stronger than I realize. (This may be the hardest!)
- I want to discover my position in my new job - it's a position that is being created and evolving and I know it will look a lot different by the end of this year than it looks now.
- Here's another REdiscover... I want to rediscover my love for writing. I have barely wrote anything, private or public this past year.
- I want to discover a new 'look' for me... to reinvent my wardrobe over the coming year. (Maybe this is the beginning of my mid-life crisis?! ha!) But seriously, do you know how many clothes in my drawers are ones I had 15 years ago?! It's time to discover something new.
- Discover new trails, maybe even a new place, new places to replenish my soul.
Thursday, January 1, 2015
A few “Milestones” of 2014…
- We celebrated our 20th Anniversary in Bar Harbor, Maine. How is this possible?! #yearsflyingby
- Longest road trip ever! (3800 miles in 17 days – DC, Philly, Boston, Maine & Hershey!)
- Became a two dog family, Duke became Daisy’s little bro in August. He’s a great personal trainer for Daisy!
- Morgan turned 13. 8th grade. She ran cross country this fall and is currently doing color guard. She plays clarinet. She makes straight A’s and is taking advanced science and math classes. She was inducted as a member of National Jr. Honor Society.
- Sarah started Middle School and she too gets straight A’s. She’s 11 and in 6th grade. She’s been learning to play the flute. She LOVES reading, currently working on the Harry Potter series.
- Girls still love swim team during the summer months.
- Cathy has enjoyed continued success in her etsy shop: www.CelebratingTheMoment.etsy.com -- she also published an ebook this past Spring called A to Z Summer Fun on amazon.com.
- We all volunteer Sundays at church, and once a month, Cathy and the girls do a craft night at a crisis maternity home with the moms. We’ve also supported Casa Adalia in Ecuador, a safe home for girls rescued from slavery.
We don’t know what 2015 will bring, but we are thankful we don’t journey this lifetime alone. We wish you much joy and happiness in the coming year!